Inside my head

YES it is important to have faith in a higher power that we can lean on in tough times, but there is no divine intervention there is only you, you have the choice it's your decision at that moment, we make these decisions. Your actions build upon another action and it snowballs. Not only one experience of suicide but the aftermath of the people you leave behind, and those you don't know who witnessed it and they are asking themselves why would you in such, in a dramatic fashion, make that decision not only for yourself, but for all those people around you - first hand witnesses or second or third hand.
Everyone has a demon side; a devil who pretends like a guardian to watch over you. We can't never know what form they'll take, but don't let appearances fool you. They can be as bright as any angel falling from the sky. Yet they're actually not here to guide us to the right path, but to push us into the valley of death, reminding the rebelious side of us. It's every one of us who holds the power over the worlds we create.
With more questions than answers, I struggle to make sense of the chaos that has become my life. I have no desire to be a part of the war brewing between the immortals that I’m suddenly surrounded by, much less lead them to their victory. However, with each new kernel of information that I glean, it looks more and more like fate has different plans for me. In the midst of the turmoil, I find myself drawn to Kenryk, despite how fervently I try not to. As things become more and more tangled, the lines between my beliefs and reality become increasingly blurry.
There I was, on top of my bed, fearing both to stay awake and to sleep. I wasn’t sure which torment was worse: cogitating to death or dreaming to death. I punched the bed several times, hating my new reality. I found it hard to spend the day or the night alone. The nightmare had become unbearable. Terror plagued me whether awake or asleep, and worse, the darkness was becoming my friend. I had to slay the demon. If a man’s character is his fate, then the war was not his choice, but his calling.
There are dreamers and there are realists in this world. You'd think the dreamers would find the dreamers and the realists would find the realists, but more often than not, the opposite is true. You see, the dreamers need the realists to keep them from soaring too close to the sun. And the realists...Well, without the dreamers, they might not ever get off the ground.
There's all kinds of milestones in life, the kind you expect to live through-- the first kiss. Birthdays... Graduations. wedding. Or even a new addition to the family. Then there's the kind you never dreamed you'd get to live through again. And that's the best kind of all.

Our planet is brimming with a random lottery of people; undeniably though, finding true love can be considered a risky business. Love is supposed to be a beautiful feeling with lots of happy thoughts emanating from the whole package of being in love, so why is finding true love is considered a difficult challenge? Is finding love really so hard though, or do we just make it hard? Finding love is not hard, but sometimes it takes a long time. So if you are single now, then you are likely going to be single for awhile.

Recount a time in your life when you faced a fear, challenge or failure. I think most of us are afraid that we don't have a story to tell. That there's nothing special about us. And then a moment comes when you least expect it, where you have to step up, no matter how terrified you are. But what I've learned is that it's good to be scared sometimes. Scared of losing the people we love, or scared of not achieving our dreams. Because those moments remind us just how special our stories really are. And maybe when you face enough of your fears, life stops being so scary after all. Now's the day to make our dreams alive.

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